It’s crazy to think an entire season has passed since I last wrote a post. The line between the literal winter and the personal winter season I’ve been walking through is pretty much a blur.
November 18, 2017…and day I won’t soon forget. I ran to the store to grab one thing for lunch and was sitting in my Jeep, waiting to turn left onto my street, a half mile from home, when a car simply didn’t stop and rear-ended me. I was fine…or so I thought.
Once the adrenaline wore off, the concussion symptoms and whiplash started to set in. I spent the next 12 days in bed, in the dark….thinking this was definitely enough time for me to recover and get back to work.
This was unfortunately not the case, as after trying to work and failing miserably for a couple of days, my doctor made it clear that work was not an option if I wanted to fully recover. So, for most of the next 3 months, I divided my time between doctor, neurology, radiology, chiropractic, ophthalmologist, physical therapy, acupuncture, and massage appointments while trying to rest in between. I missed Thanksgiving and Christmas celebrations, and lost my temper on New Year’s, a total disaster of a night.
I’m finally feeling some better in the past few weeks…maybe about 70%. I’m back to work part time, until my surgery date to remove the bulging disc that is compressing my spinal cord. Check out how lovely I looked after 2 hours in an MRI tube. Praying that will relieve some of the issues I’m still having, mainly with my arms and hands.
I discovered Cranial Sacral Therapy, thanks to a dear friend and am so grateful for this as I prepare for surgery. It has by far been the most impactful treatment I have tried, but what has truly gotten me through and kept me sane has been my faith …not religion, but a true, intimate relationship with Jesus. When I couldn’t read I would just hold my Bible in my arm when I slept at night. I was so thirsty for God’s word, and this gave me some peace during really tough days. I adore this Jesus Centered Bible.
Now that I can read, I’ve been in my Bible daily, and am feeling stronger in my faith than ever. I’ve started reading about 4 books, although I’m struggling with which to focus my attention on…and that’s ok, as I’ve learned to give myself grace.
I was blessed to win a copy of Lynn Cowell’s New book, Make Your Move, last fall, and am working my way through her study. This book is about confidence…it’s exactly what I needed and continue to need as I moved forward through each day, one at a time.
I write a lot of things down, manage noise and lights, and I have to rest. A lot.
…update, as I started to write this a couple weeks ago and never actually posted it.
I had my surgery on March 23rd, and although I have quite a bit of healing to do from surgery, I am feeling so much better. All of the neurological symptoms we hoped the procedure were correct, are SO much better. I’m feeling like this is the beginning of the end of this chapter, and although I’ve found beauty in this season of rest and healing, I’m ready to move forward. This spring is truly about fresh beginnings for me.
“I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” -John 16:33